haiz hist sub paper i cant blif it. anyway. hahaha im finally bloggin again yeah. oh well. nowadays everything feels so strange. i hate practically everything now. and even people! hmmm.... bad bad. i especially hate training! i hate everything abt cjc. ugh. tink im goin on a hatin spree. feel like going overseas then i can be with all my darlings. miss all the people der alot! its like. for now i can only relate to them. deyve been with me for so long. dey understand me the best. deyr practically the only reason why im still breathing. dey were the ones tht saw me thru the few days of numbness and depression. in fact they were the only few whom i told of my "depression" . others din even know anything of it. dey were the ones who comforted me when i was truly depressed. dey were the only few who knew tht i was even depressed inta first place. wota hell am i doin here anyway. i really wish my parents wld jus one day (soon) spring upon me a gd news.... tht we'd be migratin overseas and i wld leave all this shit behind. but i know tht will nv happen. all i can do is live in my dreams. haiz. I HATE EVERYTHING HERE!!!!!!

of cos der r a few of u all tht r exceptions! only a few tho. haiz.

ps : some of you pple are seriously gettin on my nerves as well. i wish ud jus go away and leave me alone. im gettin sick of ya! sick of u and ur hypocriticisms... ur 'cuteness' ur sickeningly sweet ways...ur irritatingly irritating self. it jus sickens me. ahAGHAGHAHG!